OMG. I AM GOING TO EXPLODE IF I DON'T GET THIS OUT. NO ONE IS EXPECTED TO READ THIS AND HOPEFULLY DO NOT. ITS NOT GOIN TO BE NICE, BUT I HAVE TO SAY IT. I'VE KEPT IT IN FOR TOO LONG AND IM GONNA DIE IF I DON'T GET IT OUT.

first off, what are friends for? someone pls tell me. are they used for entertainment, for telling secrets, for sharing your feelings, for comforting, for yelling at? WHAT ARE FREAKIN FRIENDS FOR?!??!?!?!?! someone tell me pls. coz if im being a bad friend tell me. i don't know what your criteria of being 'friends' are. if i don't do it up to your freakin standard, don't blame me, you're the one that expecting too much. so shut your freakin mouth and complaining.

don't act all innocent and mature coz YOU'RE FREAKIN NOT. you freakin reached 3 based b****y two-faced slutt that cheats on her own bf and criticising other ppl when you have no right to. don't go all mighty and clever with your freakin shallow words when you're in the wrong.

let me tell you what your freakin bigass mind got you thinkin too much, personally, i think you're the meanest person on the whole entire world who try to acts all holy and goody girl. HYPOCRITE. that word is still too good to be used on you. and im being nice. now let me explain what you freakin want to believe that happened on your own.

about telling secrets in class, WE WEREN'T. we were talking about stuff that we normally would like amber and ghadi and how boring it is. NO WAY IN HELL I WOULD TELL SECRETS IN CLASS.

second, I DO TELL YOU SECRETS. don't treat is as though i don't coz i do. and you don't think there are some secrets that are suppose to remain secrets forever? those i will never break, no matter how much you try and get it out from me so don't try and tell me im a bad friend.

third, I DO NOT USE AMBER AS AN EXCUSE NOT TO TELL YOU ANY SECRETS. if i can't even bring myself to tell amber or anyone else the secret by myself in front of them, how do you expect me to go tell it in front of everyone?!!?! and eventually i had to get kirsty to tell her for me, and the only reason she knew was coz i told her on msn which isn't so bad, and she had to tell amber on the phone! and if only you could see amber then! that secret hurt her so much, she almost cried. and partly was also coz i didn't tell her first. how do expect me to tell you first then tell amber and only let her get more hurt?!?! im not able to do that. and i said that i'll tell you after i've told amber to see if shes okay with it. but no, you had to be the superior one, like all you freakin *** *** think you guys are the superior race. and be all unreasonable and not understanding, completely OPPOSITE of what friends should be like aren't you?

fourth, i DID NOT SAY THINGS THAT AREN'T TRUE. i did not say what mo said to you, he was the one freakin exagerating, i merely told him that you were talking about him in class so we [meaning amber and i] think that he may like you. that's all i freakin said, unlike you who accuse and make up crap that aren't even true. no wonder why make up goes so well onto that crap face of yours always wearing that bitchy make up. and look, you accuse me of being 'immature', of telling ppl stuff that aren't true to get back at you. goddamnit, im not a freakin 5 year old, i told mo that was coz amber asked me to ask him, no coz i wanted to get back at you you whore. you probably did want him to like you anyway. PLS DON'T THINK THAT MY WHOLE WORLD IS REVOLVING AROUND YOU. i can't stand being misunderstood and other ppl say crap shit that aren't even true like you.

fifth, and this im at fault, i did tell ghadi that kirsty liked him. but LIKED. I DIDN'T FREAKIN SAY THAT KIRSTY LIKES HIM. and so what? aren't they together now? aren't all of them happy? aren't kirsty, ghadi and amber happy? UNLIKE YOU, i actually helped them, even though i took a risk of breaking a promise. that's what friends do you know, THEY HELP THEIR FRIENDS. you just bother about your ownself, caring about your own stupid self. try and be helpful once in your life ya know?

and DO NOT CALL ME A BAD FRIEND WHEN YOU'RE NOT ONE YOURSELF. you have NO RIGHT to do that. if you prove yourself to be a better friend than me, fine by all means. BUT YOU'RE NOT. you're worse than me, at least i don't make up things and accuse other ppl.

also, you can't blame us if YOU YOURSELF DO NOT WANT TO GET INVOLVED. im pretty sure thats what you said.. you didn't want to get involved, and not being involved means not knowing stuff, unless you stupid bigass head dun get that. and apparently its so. you just don't get it.

and no offence, but everything you do, you just seem to care about yourself, if other ppl are sad, you don't care, but when you are, you expect everyone to just care about you don't you? that's what you ppl are, self-absorbed, arrogant, self-centered, selfish, uncaring, not understanding ppl. you just don't see for others. im glad im a chinese, at least i've got good asian values in me, im glad im not like you guys.

and talk about bad friends, the one that i least expected comforted me today. THANK YOU MAHITAB, you made me alot better than i did then in school. unlike them, you asked me how i was, help cheered me up and i am very thankful for that. (:

but you guys, all you self-absorbed ppl think about are whether ppl like you or not, or think that you're hott or not. never lend a shoulder to those in need. i was so upset today and only amber noticed that SO THANK YOU AMBER TOO <3 but the rest of you im really disappointed. you guys just have no idea how to be good friends, and only think about what i can get outta the person the most. SO YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO CALL ME A BAD FRIEND.

i call amber, kirsty and mahitab friends, at least they know how to show some care to those they call friends. and i will do likewise too.

THANK YOU kirsty for trusting in me and i really appreciate that and now i know i can do so too. (: <3

and lauren, if you do read this, i want to THANK YOU VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH for being such a good friend to me. i can trust you with anything and i still want to, but i feel really bad if i do, coz i don't wanna complain to you so much. but thanks :D <3

<3 ya

okay, and if anyone else does read this, pls know that this is my opinion, i have nothing against you if you have nothing against me. im not racist or nothing, im just saying this all against one person as they have said the above mean things to me and i have to explain myself. thanks.



hey!

how're you guys? don't think anyone actually reads my blog now but oh well...i bored and have nothing better to do...i'll like slightly past 11 now..wanna sleep already, but guess what? HOLS STARTING THE END OF SCHOOL TMR! oh yeah! can't wait. then one more term and i'll be back in singapore and i can see you guys again..ooooh i can't wait.

good things and bad things happen here..dunno which you guys would want or rather NOT want to hear first but i'll start with the bad, gotta get it off if not i'll go crazy.

first, ppl here, and i mean some have been acting like complete idiots that deserve to go to hell. for one, there's this girl in my class, i dont know what the hell i've done to her, i don't talk about her behind her back i say hi everytime i see her but NOT ONCE has she said hi to be, or even talked to me. bleah. so sick and tired of her and she says shes 'sick to death of everyone here'. bleah, more like serious pms all the time. deserve to die, good for nothing, only create problems for ppl. but obviously shes done more seriously annoying things for me to say so. not just coz she hates me to death. i'm not that shallow.

second, ya know amber right? and her bf ghadi, well, i just recently found out that he's such an asshole. yeah, i sound really bad now but its true. amber isn't the kind of girl that would like kissing someone, and ghadi is the opposite, so when one of my other friends told him the reason why she wouldn't kiss he was like: WHY THE F*** DID SHE GO OUT WITH ME IN THE FIRST PLACE IF SHE DIDN'T WANT TO MAKE OUT WITH ME!!!?!??!? SHES SO SELFISH!!
so yeah, i really hope she breaks up with him tmr..

i don't think you guys have a clue on whatever's goin on, but yeah, i just wanted to write it down..lauren may probably know about the girl thing though..shes my good complain buddy! <3

bleah.

good things now..

TERM HOLS START AT 1 PM TMR! oh yeah! think i might have mentioned it but yeah. :D oh and btw, i got four hours of play practice dancing as dead fish, how could is that? [im being sarcastic if you can't detect] 2 weeks of nothingness. well not really nothing, got tons of coursework due and a history essay as well. oh what joy.

what other good things, im getting closer each day of going back to singapore and getting ma rollar blades and skateboard, which i then hope that i can actually practice on it (: hmm..i also hope i am able to watch amber and ghadi's first breakup. that would be pretty cool, shes gonna slap him i hope.

hmm..what else? i have no idea, my mouse is spazzeming right now. like really badly. and watching 'SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE?' or smth like that. im bored. save me!

anyway, im gonna go sleep now..and cara, i replied your email!

<3 ya!



hey!

im updating. and i'm 15 and 5 days old. XD miss you guys soo much. <3 and hols is in a week so i can finally rest.

lauren, i replied your email already, but i haven't replied yours cara. and i will in time. like today probably.

in english now, being really bored and finally not being watched by the stupid teacher. and i have to do research for shakespeare which is totally stupid, haven't been doing anything at all the whole time. we're gonna have a 2g party right? i can't wait. <3

stupid teacher got the watch back on. gonna go now. and i will blog again soon. amber says hi.

(: <3 ya.







hey!!

MY BIRTHDAY'S IN TWO WEEKS! <3

then i'll be 15! whoohoo. XD some ppl will be 15 before me like jing, cheryl (: yay! fellow friends whose birthdays are in march. and yiling and shu too! miss you guys tons. <3

yay! two ppl tagged me. i'm so happy. even though they're not actually talking to me but oh well. (:

its been rather fun these past two days. gotta go back to school tmr though and i haven't started on hw yet. bleah. went to this chinese fair thingy on thursday. haha. not really chinese though, but there were rides there so it was fun. spent like 45 dirhams = S$20 on this ride that went round and round in circles and jerky/bumpy. and there weren't any seat belts or anything, just like you sit in a round circle and hold the bar things behind you. it was really fun. it gets so jerky that you can like fall onto the floor and never get back up again and just roll around into other ppl. sat for 3 times and flew out of my seat on the last round. and got someone's butt in my face. oh yeah, and kicked many ppl too who were on the floor. haha. its really fun. (: but then after that it got a bit boring. but it was still fun.

went out last night with my friend to watch this dude play basketball. they lost, by 2 points, he was so sad and they were leading by so much. oh well. didn't actually watch them play, came in at half time then kinda just walked away to the other parts in the marina and cycled and talked. then went to pizza hut coz we were so hungry and saw this little kitten which was so so sos so sooo CUTE! it kinda just followed us, but we were gonna get a taxi so we put it back behind the gate and it kinda just got onto the railing and sat there and watched us get into the taxi, gosh, it was sooo cute. (:

pizza hut was funny, we made mickey and minney mouse, donald duck and pluto with pizzas and garlic bread and potato salad. how cool is that? haha. and we had a meal-in-cup too. there was pizza, pepsi, potato, garlic bread and cheese in it. haha. kinda just went crazy and jesse dumped everything she could find on the table in it. and i can't believe someone actually ate and drank from it! it looked so disgusting. kinda wasted the rest of the pizza but oh well, didn't have enough money to pay for the food, we were like 10 bucks short, so baby murderer had to pay for the rest. haha.

and one of my other friend, summer, got stuck in those swings meant for little kiddies that has got two holes for you to put your legs in. gosh, it was hilarious. like 10 of us tried to help pull her out but still couldn't. but she finally managed to come out. then went to the skate park. went crazy there. kinda coz amber texted me saying how she missed ghadi so much [she was in abu dhabi, like 4 hours away] and i showed it to him and he got so happy he fell to the floor and went hyper. then kinda got into tackling ppl, dunno how that started, ppl were kinda just being thrown onto the ground and squishing other ppl. then amber texted again saying: "i <3 you too", coz ghadi said he loved her too. then he really got hyper and kinda fainted for like 5 seconds just lieing on the ground and then started tackling ppl again. it was fun. but then amber texted again that her parents found out about them and are trying to stop them. wahh. then he got so depressed. :( but he got better after that. (:

haha cara, ghadi's nice and cute but he loves amber obsessively. its kinda scary really. but he's cool, from lebanon-serria. and guess what? he has a bro called jameel, which means pretty in arabic, but my friends just call him jelly coz we can't pronounce his name. and the dudes here are really really good at skateboarding too ya know cara. wonder how your skateboarding coming along. XD they can do really really cool stuff. this dude, went up a ramp thingy and jumped over a trolley thingy really high. i'll show you a pic if i can load it. (: and reply my email!!!

hey jing whos a week older than me but way much taller than me. how ya doin? its gonna be your b'day soon too and you'll be 15! then after a week i'll be 15! <3 haha. can't wait. tag me more!!!

that's ghadi, he looks weird in the pic coz he didn't know it was being taken. xP

girl in front is summer, raven's sis, she's really fun. (:

hey guys!

HAPPY CNY! (:

guess you guys would be going ard saying 'gong xi fa cai' and getting hong baos huh? lucky you. i miss all those CNY goodies and definitely the money :'( i get none here wahhh. i feel so lonely. oh well.well, those of you who're still in mg, say happy CNY to the teachers for me! (: sankyu.

it's been a really good CNY this year, woke up late, on the com ever since. well, i just went to say happy CNY to my relatives on skype which was a total exciting and happy thing for me. wheeee..........

having a 2-day mid-term break now, have to go back to school the day after. bleah. better than nothing i guess. i wanna go back to s'pore. i miss you guys. <3

probably going to abu dhabi after this, don't know for what, but i really don't feel like doing anything right now, other than sleep, which i seem to be lacking but never be able to do it.

and avvie, i dunno, i think you said hi to me and didn't reply after that. weird. and listen to more chinese music to improve your chinese, sann's a really good example. (:

hey cheryl! i won't be on msn very often now, coz internet's down, it keeps going on and off. so yeah, just so happens today the internet is up (: lucky me. and don't worry, you'll improve in physics. (:

Sup' jing! don't feel so sad. its CNY! you get money and goodies (: yum. haha. and i'm not too sure what date i'll be coming back to s'pore so you can just go ahead and put the class party some day in june, i think it's better before school starts. but i think i won't be there before school starts. so yeah, and you won't fail physics either. you're good at that. and basically everything. XD

okayyy cara. random and lotsa tags. sankyu :D haha. amber is weird yeah, and if you wanna know, she just got a bf from seirra (sp?) whos really really nice and cute. he'll stop smoking for her. isn't that sweet? lol. and i'll email ya, but you gotta reply kay? haha.

have fun during CNY you guys! miss ya! <3



hey!

i'm bloggin again! how good am i? haha.

in school now during break, kinda boring and with amber...we're in the library with obviously amber as you can see the following and with kirsty as well. i miss our school's computers but these are good too. and the reason why we're here is to laugh at some stupid guy coz he's in the english creative writing club! LOL. TOM, CLAYTON AND RHYS to be exact. but i only wanna laugh at tom coz he threw my pen across the room and laughed at me coz amber gave him my pen. bleah. but i'm gonna have revenge now. muahahahhahahaha.

amber: hello i am very sexy and like rhys hehe lol! (joke between me and jaime) hmm...:) i am going to go straight edge it is going to be so cool! do you guys think i should? i am so glad Su Teng goes to are school now and not yours hehe u guys must be jealous!:) i <3 fall out boy and pomies because ponies are so EMO! i am EMO well i want to be:)! are you guys emo? I <3 my chemical romance! do you? i know a song in chinneese yong gan qu ai :) impressed? je suis gang-etoile**= i am gang-star wait im emo....hhmm

weird? or just weird? haha. kiddin. she's nice and fun and emo (according to her) more of emo gangstar actually. and she says shes stupid coz she never thought of being emo gangster. and i have no idea what straight edge is. she's like my bestie here so yeah. :)

anyway, class is gonna start soon again in like 10 mins so i gotta get going. business and english later, so sian. but i can't help it. may put up a pic of amber so you can see how she looks like if i can find one.

and jing, be happy and get well soon and good luck for exams and i will help you with the partae so don't worry. it'll probably be after the june hols though. (:

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